Ever have one of those days where you stop and take a step back from your life and realise everything is so fucked up, you can no longer fix it? Yep. Thats how my entire week has felt. Mind you, writing my lyrics helps get some of the frustration out... but it still doesn't help the fact that my life is irreparable. It's really annoying at times. Especially when [a certain issue at hand] isn't helping. In fact [a certain issue at hand] is making things all more difficult. THis would be when I would take another step back and see if there are any lose ends I could possibly repair, but, upon closer inspection, those loose ends have nothing to be tied to. Which means they are floating around causing even more pain that wanted. blech. If it were anyone else but me, they'd be saying things like 'Why me, god?' and 'Oh god, I wanna die. Just end it here and now.' But that's them. not me. Yes, I have had those thoughts slip across my mind before, and they are evident in some of my lyrics, but hell, I couldn't give a shit at this point. It's just a frusterating mess that I know all too well and have no way of sorting out. At least not untill [a certain issue at hand] is fixed and I can go about my life.

'The room continuously spins
Make it spin faster ~ poisonous injection
Hate yourself ~ Hate myself ~ Limited inhibitions
Reach for the rope ~ Life anew ~ Grave Sin' (Taken from my lyrics, you steal you die)